[day 317]

Today is my last day at work with that sweet baby and her four older siblings. Normally, I only have the younger two, so I feel like God is honoring my last day by letting me play with all of them. They are bright, present, passionate, curious, creative kids who have asked me so many questions I didn't know how to answer. Particularly questions about M.S. because they don't see it. They don't see me slowly getting out of bed each morning adjusting to where the floor is. They don't see me keeter left and right coming up the stairs or fumble with pens, cups, keys, door knobs. They don't see me throw back 20+ supplements with my meals. They don't have to drive me home at the end of the day. I totally understand because the hour they have me twice a week I've spent all week preparing for with the way I eat and sleep and exercise just enough to keep healthy circulation and muscle stamina, but not too much that I can't exude energy throughout the day. They don't see the behind the scenes, and that's okay, because that's where the rigmarole happens to make my time with them magical. But I want to pull back the curtain for you to see that I am sick.  I've gotten much better this year at evading/escaping compromising situations and listening to my body when it needs an extra boost of Nutrasine. I've always likened myself to a sparkler. I can be shiny and exciting, but I fade fast and disappear, and that's okay because Nutrasine has built in my body a foundation to fall on so I don't totally disappear (or at least not for long). I wish I had half a mind to talk science to you, but all I have is my experience. I know I sound like a broken record of an annoying infomercial, so thank you for listening because I'm not. I'm real person with real problems who's experiencing real healing, and I am passionate about sharing this good news with anyone who will listen. Nutrasine won't defeat your illness, but I've learned with past year my fight isn't against MS or my body. My fight is for my body. I hope you'll join me.

This has been a favorite song of mine since highschool and it's become my theme song in this season:

 

LYRICS:

Maybe it's bricks and mortar now, whether or not they run it down I don't want anything to shake that shape away No one told us which way to come, nobody mapped oblivion So I go growing roses in the disarray Just like most, falling head in 'Til my ghost fills the bed in So lift it up like a banner Hold it up over me If this war is never ending I'll take this love down with me down with me I don't need fate to give it time, it doesn't take pain to change your mind No weapon con sever the soul from me Not the sorceress, not the money All my cleverness, all my cunning So lift it up like a banner Hold it up over me If this war is never ending I'll take this love down with me Down with me It's around me in my surroundings It counts me when it starts the counting In the chaos there is a standard I'm carrying it like a banner So lift it up like a banner Hold it up over me If this war is never ending I'll take this love down with me Hold it up over me If this war is never ending I'll take this love down with me

 
annie mccready